It may not be in the way you're thinking though ....
I care about all the people in my life. I am a good person.
So when situations arise that question my character, it hurts. I don’t sleep well and I walk around with that pit deep in my stomach.
This happened recently. My integrity was questioned by someone that I very much respect.
The fact that another human thought I had done wrong bothered me. Really bothered me. I couldn’t figure out why. I knew in my heart that I was in the right. So why did I feel like I was in the wrong?
I suffer from approval addiction. An intense desire to win the approval of those around me and avoid feelings of rejection..
So what did I do?
It's simple.
I moved on...
So I pissed someone off who didn’t have the right to be pissed off.
That’s their problem. Not mine.
I had to remind myself that I am a person who has free will. I can determine the direction of my own actions without the demand for approval.
They didn’t approve. That’s fine. That’s life.
- Justin
